February 26, 2013 § Leave a Comment
So, I finally got some posts from my Livejournal blog imported to here. Wow, I didn’t think I had so many posts and from way back in 2003! I was reading some of them and I must say they are pretty interesting. Lots of dream posts, too.
On another note, I have barely slept. I think the most I’ve slept since last night so far is 20-30 minutes. And now, I’m awake again. Why, oh why, does this happen to me? I just want a decent night’s rest, without interruptions and sleep straight on.
Today is my yearly review at work, what they call, PEAC. It’s not my anniversary date this month but my company decided to move everyone’s PEAC, and I mean, EVERYONE IN THE COMPANY (more than 50,000 employees!!) to the month of February. It must be chaos for HR, the managers and employees. Sheesh. I had a bit of a problem with my PEAC schedule, though, since my manager wanted me to come in on my day off. Hell no! Thankfully, after I explained to him the situation he had rescheduled for today.
Also another meeting to go to today is to discuss “roles and expectations” with my team leader and manager. Hm…we’ll see how this turns out, hopefully it’s good! I tell you, with my group’s new management and my years working in the same position, I’ve never seen soooo many meetings. Meeting this, meeting that…I think they’re bored. Pretty soon, they will come up with lame excuses just to have a meeting. I can’t wait to see that, lol.
Well, here’s to another day of busy, busy me. And it’s just Tuesday. Oy.
March 24, 2012 § Leave a Comment
Since I thoroughly enjoyed the concert “Do You Hear The People Sing?” last night at the American Airlines Center, I had a dream last night. :)
I was still thinking of getting a photo op with Lea Salonga so this dream started with me going back to AAC and found she was still signing autographs and the line was almost close to done. I noticed this was already 3am. Don’t ask me why, this was a dream. My sister Claire was there with me and we chatted with Lea.
As the lines died down, I asked if I could get a photo with Lea. She said, “Sure,” and I proceeded to get my iPhone up and get on the Camera app. This is when things started going wrong. My iPhone was acting up and showing a bunch of equation buttons and editing buttons. It was just showing me weird stuff. I kept pushing the Home button on the phone but it still wouldn’t go back to the main screen and was just erroring out on me.
I kept apologizing to Lea and was slightly embarrassed, but she was so nice about it and was waiting patiently. At one point, I even asked my sister if I could borrow her phone to take our picture, but the scene kept going back to me trying to fix my own phone. All this time we were chatting about life and kids, etc.
That’s when I woke up. At the end, I think I still didn’t get a picture with Lea Salonga. Such a dissapointing dream! Hehehe.
March 19, 2012 § Leave a Comment
Really getting frustrated with this needlepoint project. I keep finding some miscounts and having to adjust my stitches and everything. That’s what happens when you put off projects for too long. When you pick it up back again, it feels like you don’t know how to start from where you left off.
Also, being nearsighted, I keep having to take off my glasses to work on this thing. Then after a few hours of working/restitching/cursing, I look up and I get eyestrain. And then lightheadedness. Anyone else feel this way when they’re working on a project like this?
Been taking off gaming lately. I haven’t picked up a game since a couple of weeks ago, hehe. :P Well, not quite took off of it, I only spend less than 30 minutes to check on other stuff before I have to do something else. Oh, who am I kidding, I’ve been gaming on iPhone/iPad apps like DrawSomething. Now that thing is addicting. It also hones my drawing skillz. :P
So now, I hope to finish my needlepoint project soon, and without the stress of finding miscounts and what-not. I would like to finish it before Easter, if possible. (That’s my birthday, by the way. Send me presents!)
February 29, 2012 § Leave a Comment
Leap year day! What a day, what a day. At least so far.
Had to wake up at 5am, so I could go downtown to pick up my uncle to take him to the airport. I didn’t have to go, really, but I wanted to spend a little more time with Uncle Rex since we only saw him for a few hours (or minutes?) during his stay in Dallas. Had a good chat with him for a little bit and sent him on his way.
I got home just in time to walk Dani to school. She was actually awake already by the time we got home. Usually, I have a hard time getting her up and about and off to school. Also a rare occasion to have Lucien walk with us as well. Still fun.
I then took a nap for about an hour and then off to see my OB/GYN for my annual check-up. I had planned to grab a yogurt from the fridge for my breakfast but I forgot. Grr. I ended up fidgeting at the reception area for more than an hour with hunger pangs and anxiety. I guess it’s never too good for a diabetic to skip a meal. At least for me, because I’m still getting used to the fact I’m a diabetic now (forgot to tell you that, didn’t I? I got diagnosed last December with Type II Diabetes). Have to watch my carb intake and what not also. Mental note: bring some candy on hand. EVERYWHERE.
So I finally saw the doc after, maybe two hours (ugh!). I also wanted to see her if she was okay with us to try and have another baby, wink wink. She said so far I’m doing good but she did recommend I stabilize my blood sugar levels first before we start trying. Maybe six weeks or so, she said. Well, there goes my plan on having a baby in the Year of the Dragon. Hehehe.
Finally left the establishment and I had to find a place to eat. I figured to try a new place which I pass by all the time going to work. Big mistake, though. The prices were not in my current price range at all. So I settled for an appetizer sampler but big mistake there, too. Carbs galore! I still finished it all, which is another big mistake. Three strikes and I was out, so to speak, haha. Anyway, paid my bill, and went on my way. Guess next time I should have gone with my gut instinct and went for the unlimited soup and salad at Olive Garden. Cheaper and healthier!
Now, on to work. I actually came by an hour early so I thought I’d catch up on some sleep I missed out on this morning but some person kept coming by and interrupting my solace. Grr. So I just decided to clock in early and I will leave early. So there!
Long day, and it’s not even over yet! /le sigh
November 4, 2011 § Leave a Comment
I can’t sleep. It’s been almost 24 hours since I have learned my last living grandparent had passed away. I literally cried out, “Nooooooo!” after I saw my sister’s status update on her Facebook wall. I was devastated. I was happily planning to go back to the Philippines with my family in January, hoping to surprise Lola on her 96th birthday. It was going to be a memorable experience, given my two daughters have not seen their great grandmother yet. It was supposed to be epic.
Sadly, this will not be so. It feels like days already, yet…has it only been 20 plus hours? A lot has happened since then. I had startled Lucien awake after my outburst and had been a comfort to me since then. I literally broke down in tears. I only stopped so I could call people. I thought about Laverne, our old neighbor in Kinkaid, who had been best friends with my grandmother and fondly called her Lisa. They had exchanged letters over the years, and I had been visiting Laverne every once in a while to catch up with news. So, I decided to call her and let her know what had happened. As soon as I said my name, I knew something was wrong. Laverne didn’t know me. What? She does not recall who I was, nor my mom, my sisters who she has met years before, not even Ted, my grandfather, nor Lisa, my grandmother she hung out with so much. She did not know my grandmother. I was hurt. Extremely. Particularly the way she was indifferent with how I finally said that Lola had passed away. She seemed concerned enough but it wasn’t a concern by a great friend of hers, more like how an acquaintance reacts to someone who passed away. I hung up and sobbed even more. Never mind that she forgot me, or mom, or my sisters, I was more hurt that she would forget Lola like that. I later learned from Mom that Laverne might be suffering from dementia or onset of Alzheirmer’s because of her old age as well, but nevertheless it was heartbreaking.
Later in the afternoon, after exchanging instant messages from family back home, we decided to use Skype. It was comforting at least to talk to family, catching up on things and trying to figure out if or when we will go home. In the meantime, Lucien was trying his best to get me to the Philippines in two days time, and I had been filling out time off request forms for my employer. Lucien came through for me, and was able to get me tickets, but I had to go to Houston to board his ailrine’s international flight. No biggie, and luckily my flight doesn’t leave till the afternoon. My employer was generous enough to give me my requested time and do what I need to do. All through this, I felt like in a daze, totally exhausted yet my mind wouldn’t let me sleep like tonight. I was constantly online, calling this and that, doing a few quick errands and repeat. I even had the strength to cook which kinda comforted me more a bit. I used to remember Lola “forcing” me to learn how to cook. I say forcing because at the time, I wasn’t interested. However, the ever present home economics teacher in her had insisted I learn a thing or two of cooking. And even typing. And sewing. And doing crochet.
When Lucien and the kids got home, we all sat down and talked. I actually didn’t want to because I know I would burst out crying. But we had to explain to Dani and Lauren how Lola, who they were excited to see, is now in heaven. It was a little hard to explain it and Lucien even had a hard time trying not to cry. Later, after dinner, Lucien insisted I go take a nap, as I had not rested since the news. I had fitfully slept for three hours and woke up since I still had some packing to do. After the girls had gone to bed, Lucien and I had some good conversations about Lola. He is so sweet and all I needed for comfort. How blessed I am with this man.
There are so many loving memories of her. I’m just sad that I didn’t get to spend more time with her as we lived so far away. Lola didn’t like it in the States. She felt her age, and she couldn’t go outside and do as she pleased. In the Philippines, she was the queen of the house and can go about and do active things. She felt so alive there.
More memories I remember:
- I used to invite her to go to church with me and she used to scoff at me and refuse to go. When I was already here in the US, I had heard she is so active in church, holding bible studies in her house and had a women’s circle group. What a change! I was so happy for her.
- I loved her “Ahay!” “Meow meow!” remarks I teach them to my kids.
- Lucien had said Lola was the first one to accept him to the family, even before my mom did as she didn’t like him at the start. She said something like, “He is my grandson already!” Lucien was so touched as he had no grandparents anymore. She even gave him a hug to welcome him to the family. He teared up as he said this and I followed suit. He really loved her as his own.
- We went to a reception of some sort and had a big banquet. As they were serving coffee around the tables, the server asked Lola if she wanted some. She said “No, thank you” while nodding her head yes. The server was so confused and gave her coffee anyway. She leaned over to me to ask why she got coffee when she had refused and I told her she was nodding yes. Haha.
- I heard about how Lola went to the bank to withdraw some money. The teller asked, “What denomination?” (pertaining what kinds of bills she needed) Lola answered confidently, “When I was younger, I was a Baptist, but now I go to a Methodist church!” :P
There are more but now my mind has finally admitted its exhaustion. Tomorrow night, we will drive to Houston and begin my journey home and see Lola for the final time.
April 27, 2010 § Leave a Comment
I got this email from my family, and I thought it’d be a good thing for us to sign it! I have already done so.Original Message:
———————————————————- Finally, some good news to act on!!
Forward this as fast as you can! On Tuesday, the Senate health committee voted 12-11 in favor of a two-page amendment that would require all Members and their staffs to enroll in any new government-run health plan. It took me less than a minute to sign up to require our congressmen and senators to drink at the same trough! Three cheers for Congressman John Fleming of Louisiana! Congressman John Fleming (Louisiana physician) has proposed an amendment that would require congressmen and senators to take the same health care plan they force on us (under proposed legislation they are curiously exempt).
Congressman Fleming is encouraging people to go on his Website and Sign his petition (very simple – just email). I have just done just that at:
Please urge as many people as you can to do the same! If Congress forces this on the American people, the Congress should have to accept the same level of health care for themselves and their families. To do otherwise is the height of hypocrisy!
Please pass this on !!!
April 25, 2010 § 5 Comments
But no, I will be a good girl and stay where I am.I will be a good girl and stay where I am. I will be a good girl and stay where I am. I will be a good girl and stay where I am. I will be a good girl and stay where I am. I will be a good girl and stay where I am. *sigh* I feel like I’m losing a fighting battle. But no, I will be a good girl and stay where I am.
October 14, 2008 § Leave a Comment
I’m just so blah today. I want to hide in my own little world. Turn off the lights. Curl fetus-like in my covers. Sleep the day away. Are these signs of depression? Or is my body telling me the time of my daughter’s birth is getting nearer and nearer? I don’t know. Even playing my regular online games isn’t amusing me. All I managed today was read a book. I don’t even know if I want to fire up my laptop right now. I might just continue reading the manga I was reading yesterday.
Speaking of books, I just found out that the 3rd book of the Inheritance trilogy written by Christopher Paolini is out. That’s on my list of books to get. I’m torn between getting the e-book version for my iPhone or just getting the hardcover. I think I might do the latter, since I have the first 2 books.
Looking forward to the Inkheart movie, and I love how they casted Brendan Fraser as the dad. I read the book once and I thought it was good. I should read it again soon.
Anyways, that’s all for now. At least I feel a little better now that I wrote stuff down. Toodles.
September 14, 2008 § Leave a Comment
Seriously. We haven’t even been affected by Ike or anything. People have been asking if we’re okay and such. There was little rain and winds weren’t that bad, either, though we had a wind advisory. In fact, it’s actually sunny today.
Galveston didn’t have it so lucky, though. There has been alertness all around our workplace because we might get some transfers from other children’s hospitals from Houston/Galveston.
Thanks for your concern for us. We’re really okay.