March 20, 2013 § Leave a Comment
So here’s what’s been happening so far and things to come:
- Already going into my 36 weeks of pregnancy on Friday, which means I have at least 2 weeks (given my record) OR 4 weeks left till Leslie Samantha comes! The girls are very excited (and, of course, Luci). They have built the crib and all and we are still wondering where I will “nest” after birth. I used to nest in the girls’ room but then that’s their room now, so I suggested our big living room. We have an extra mattress I can use with Sammy (I think that’s what her nickname will be).
- Other pregnancy news, the belly is growing more and more. You wouldn’t have noticed I was preggers a month ago, but it is truly noticeable now. Also will have to watch what I eat more carefully now because of the diabetes and HBP. I’m starting to see some swelling feet, which isn’t good. I usually have a good record in not having it. So I have to watch myself.
- Dani is having a school field trip to the Fort Worth Zoo in about 2 weeks! Hopefully, I will be able to go with her if Luci can’t. And hopefully, I won’t be in labor that week, eek, lol.
- Memorial Day weekend, the family will be going to LA to bring Luci’s mom’s remains to its final resting place. Still making plans, etc. on it. Also have to decide on a memorial plaque for her.
- One of my first cousins is getting married in August! I don’t really know if I can make it, given I’m taking maternity leave for 12 weeks after I give birth. And I want to go so bad. :( I haven’t seen my beloved relatives in the US in so long, and it’s been a while since we’ve had a family reunion. Here’s praying I can at least just take the weekend off for it. I hope, Lord!
- Deleted all of my Posterous Spaces now, except for my main one (because it doesn’t have the option to delete it, so I made it password-protected). I’m still very, very sad Posterous is closing. I really liked that concept of that site. It’s way easier to post there than anywhere. Why would you “fix” what’s not broke? :(
And that’s it so far. Will let y’all know what else if I remember any more. :)
March 9, 2013 § Leave a Comment
March 4, 2013 § 1 Comment
A Day At The Farm 3/2/13, a set on Flickr. Click on the link to view more.
A day at the farm with Uncle Mark, 3/2/13
September 17, 2012 § Leave a Comment
Lucien and the kids were watching a movie, and one of the actors said in a New York accent, "I'm walking heah (here)!" Dani asked what that phrase meant, and Lucien said, "That's what they say in New York. In Texas, it means 'Excuse me.'" Imagine my laughter!
November 4, 2011 § Leave a Comment
I can’t sleep. It’s been almost 24 hours since I have learned my last living grandparent had passed away. I literally cried out, “Nooooooo!” after I saw my sister’s status update on her Facebook wall. I was devastated. I was happily planning to go back to the Philippines with my family in January, hoping to surprise Lola on her 96th birthday. It was going to be a memorable experience, given my two daughters have not seen their great grandmother yet. It was supposed to be epic.
Sadly, this will not be so. It feels like days already, yet…has it only been 20 plus hours? A lot has happened since then. I had startled Lucien awake after my outburst and had been a comfort to me since then. I literally broke down in tears. I only stopped so I could call people. I thought about Laverne, our old neighbor in Kinkaid, who had been best friends with my grandmother and fondly called her Lisa. They had exchanged letters over the years, and I had been visiting Laverne every once in a while to catch up with news. So, I decided to call her and let her know what had happened. As soon as I said my name, I knew something was wrong. Laverne didn’t know me. What? She does not recall who I was, nor my mom, my sisters who she has met years before, not even Ted, my grandfather, nor Lisa, my grandmother she hung out with so much. She did not know my grandmother. I was hurt. Extremely. Particularly the way she was indifferent with how I finally said that Lola had passed away. She seemed concerned enough but it wasn’t a concern by a great friend of hers, more like how an acquaintance reacts to someone who passed away. I hung up and sobbed even more. Never mind that she forgot me, or mom, or my sisters, I was more hurt that she would forget Lola like that. I later learned from Mom that Laverne might be suffering from dementia or onset of Alzheirmer’s because of her old age as well, but nevertheless it was heartbreaking.
Later in the afternoon, after exchanging instant messages from family back home, we decided to use Skype. It was comforting at least to talk to family, catching up on things and trying to figure out if or when we will go home. In the meantime, Lucien was trying his best to get me to the Philippines in two days time, and I had been filling out time off request forms for my employer. Lucien came through for me, and was able to get me tickets, but I had to go to Houston to board his ailrine’s international flight. No biggie, and luckily my flight doesn’t leave till the afternoon. My employer was generous enough to give me my requested time and do what I need to do. All through this, I felt like in a daze, totally exhausted yet my mind wouldn’t let me sleep like tonight. I was constantly online, calling this and that, doing a few quick errands and repeat. I even had the strength to cook which kinda comforted me more a bit. I used to remember Lola “forcing” me to learn how to cook. I say forcing because at the time, I wasn’t interested. However, the ever present home economics teacher in her had insisted I learn a thing or two of cooking. And even typing. And sewing. And doing crochet.
When Lucien and the kids got home, we all sat down and talked. I actually didn’t want to because I know I would burst out crying. But we had to explain to Dani and Lauren how Lola, who they were excited to see, is now in heaven. It was a little hard to explain it and Lucien even had a hard time trying not to cry. Later, after dinner, Lucien insisted I go take a nap, as I had not rested since the news. I had fitfully slept for three hours and woke up since I still had some packing to do. After the girls had gone to bed, Lucien and I had some good conversations about Lola. He is so sweet and all I needed for comfort. How blessed I am with this man.
There are so many loving memories of her. I’m just sad that I didn’t get to spend more time with her as we lived so far away. Lola didn’t like it in the States. She felt her age, and she couldn’t go outside and do as she pleased. In the Philippines, she was the queen of the house and can go about and do active things. She felt so alive there.
More memories I remember:
- I used to invite her to go to church with me and she used to scoff at me and refuse to go. When I was already here in the US, I had heard she is so active in church, holding bible studies in her house and had a women’s circle group. What a change! I was so happy for her.
- I loved her “Ahay!” “Meow meow!” remarks I teach them to my kids.
- Lucien had said Lola was the first one to accept him to the family, even before my mom did as she didn’t like him at the start. She said something like, “He is my grandson already!” Lucien was so touched as he had no grandparents anymore. She even gave him a hug to welcome him to the family. He teared up as he said this and I followed suit. He really loved her as his own.
- We went to a reception of some sort and had a big banquet. As they were serving coffee around the tables, the server asked Lola if she wanted some. She said “No, thank you” while nodding her head yes. The server was so confused and gave her coffee anyway. She leaned over to me to ask why she got coffee when she had refused and I told her she was nodding yes. Haha.
- I heard about how Lola went to the bank to withdraw some money. The teller asked, “What denomination?” (pertaining what kinds of bills she needed) Lola answered confidently, “When I was younger, I was a Baptist, but now I go to a Methodist church!” :P
There are more but now my mind has finally admitted its exhaustion. Tomorrow night, we will drive to Houston and begin my journey home and see Lola for the final time.
September 8, 2011 § Leave a Comment
From Dani’s teacher:
So, we are in math stations right now and Dani is telling her partner about how her mommy went to the dentist so her sister Lauren could come out of mommy’s tummy. Her partner asked why the dentist and she said, “I don’t know but that’s where they went”. Hahahahaha.
April 16, 2008 § Leave a Comment
I have an affinity to be melodramatic. My imagination always, ALWAYS goes haywire with little things like missing a stair step that I end up falling down and hitting my head on the sharp edge of the piano leg that’s right at the end of the stairs at home. And what would happen afterwards, and so on. The list is goes on that contain lots of worst-scenario mishaps I might encounter. This also includes wrong-doings that might happen to my hubby or my daughter, but mostly mainly me.
I’m always afraid of death. I’m sure I’m not the only one. It’s not really the death itself that scares me the most. It’s leaving the ones behind. What happens when I’ve passed on. How will they cope when I’m gone. Also the things I’ve done on the Internet will still be somewhat active still, yet the “star” is not there. It’s almost to the point that I want to make a living will.
I know I’m being weird. I don’t think I’ll die anytime soon, but there’s always the thought. You’ll never really know, huh?
I’m also afraid of losing hubby. I don’t show it much, but in the back of my mind, I’m screaming and pulling my hair out due to worry for my husband. He’s been really lucky, or shall I say blessed, in life. He’s had so many life-threatening accidents happen and he comes out unscathed. But how long will it last?
I guess I’m just scared in total of the uncertainty of life. I see all these murders and deaths happen in the news lately, it’s almost become a “household” theme. Like this man, for example, who stabbed his wife to death because she wouldn’t sleep in the bedroom. I mean, c’mon! It’s just so totally bogus to have something happen like that just because of a minute matter.
I have an affinity to be melodramatic. Now you know why.
April 13, 2008 § Leave a Comment
So, now I’m 33. It’s kinda weird seeing that number. It reminds me of Jesus and the most eventful year of his life. Could this be the most eventful year of my life?
Spent birthday with family. I had done a lot of errands that day, and just finished in time for a sit-down dinner at a Thai restaurant. Good stuff and fun times to catch up on things.
Already after my birthday, I drove to Houston with Luci and Dani. Luci is going to work there for a bit to jumpstart a passenger flight for the airlines he works for. It should be a fun experience for him.
It was also a good time to visit this Filipino restaurant I’ve been missing from previous Houston visits. They had a buffet lunch and we went there in the 2 days I had stayed. They didn’t cook the same food on both days, which was good. I was filled with Filipino food goodness. Luci even mentioned that he missed hearing me talk Tagalog to people other than my family. I then realized I really should get Dani to speak Tagalog often with me when she’s more comprehensive.
I drove back to Houston with Dani, sans Luci. It was my first time driving on my own like that. 3 to 4 hours drive from one city to another is a big deal for me. When we go on long trips, it’s usually with Luci and he drives most of the way. I was kinda scared I would fall asleep on the wheel, but leaving around the afternoon and before dusk really helped me keep awake. Even Dani was awake the whole trip, almost. (She fell asleep once we touched down in Dallas.)
So now we’re home safe, it’s back to normal life. Our house is still intact, despite that big tornado warning around the area I live in last Thursday. Thank goodness.
Missing hubby now. Must go talk to him.
March 5, 2008 § Leave a Comment
Yep, still awake. And it’s already the start of another day. I discovered/learned some things today, though. Or should I say: Yesterday.
1. TVShack.net – my new favorite resource to find movies and TV shows. You must go! Love.
2. How to hack my PSP. Yes, I know. It’s bad. But it’s good. I’m still waiting on a game to use it with, though, so I can fully downgrade the version I’m using right now. Yes, I know. But eeeeeeee.
3. Mabinogi. New game coming out in Open Beta. Looks promising. Somewhat casual. Must check out.
4. Some good news. Told my immediate family, but I can’t say for sure yet and confirm it. Have to wait till the 20th. You’ll love this one.
5. My daughter hates covers like me. I kick my covers off in the middle of the night. She does the same. Luci needs to stop covering us back up. Hehe. Okay. Time to really get a bit of shut-eye. With my luck, Dani will wake me up at noon. Good thing I’m off today.
February 20, 2008 § Leave a Comment
Pictures from trip to Carlsbad:
We had a very mysterious thing that happened to us on our way to Carlsbad. One of God’s miracles? However you think of it, it really was unusual and creepy. So we were following our car’s GPS navigation to our destination and we took this little highway north towards the border of New Mexico from Texas, and we were running on a little under a quarter of the gas tank. We figured we’d run into a gas station on the way, but for about 50 miles or so, no gas station or a store in sight. We saw a little town, but we didn’t see anything but little buildings and everything was dark. So we just kept going.
After a while, the GPS told us to turn left, and we did see a sign that said “Gas” this way about 16 miles. By this time, we were already down to no bars on the gas tank light. We were running on faith that it will keep us going till we get to the gas station. Alas, after all the praying and cajoling the car to keep going, we slowed down to a stop. It was already around midnight and there were hardly anything around except a few houses.
So, hubby started preparing to go out and walk back where we came from and hope to find a gas station, when this 18-wheeler truck arrived in front of us. Hubby asked where the nearest gas station was, and the truck driver said there’s a gas station 16 miles to where we were going but the closest one was 6 miles behind us (we could’ve kept on going forward instead of left). So the driver offered to take hubby to the gas station while daughter and I stayed by the car.
What was eerie at this point was that no one else drove by. So was it God-send that this truck driver came at the right time?
Hubby came back with the truck driver and had enough gas to take us back to the gas station 6 miles away. The driver even helped fill up the gas tank with what we had. Hubby told him he didn’t need to drive him back but the driver just shrugged his shoulders. We were so grateful.
And so, our “adventure” came to an end, and we were able to go our way.