Superficiality

Jamie managed to convince me to play Anarchy Online again. *sigh*.

I feel bad about Saturday. I promised to go to a friend’s daughter’s 1st birthday party, but opted out because Lucien’s buddy was visiting for a barbecue. The buddy never showed up, and the time was wasted. I heard later on that some of our other friends didn’t get to go to the party, for other reasons I don’t know. I hope my friend didn’t get mad at me.

Sunday, another bad thing. My mom means well, but she does put everything to a guilt trip. That’s why I didn’t go to the fellowship, but to the lunch afterwards. Forgive me, Lord.

All these, though, make me feel superficial. As if my mind and heart are in total war, and I am stuck in the middle deciding which one to choose. I have too much going on, too much to think about, but have nothing to do. It’s weird, but yeah, that’s how I feel. Blah.

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4 thoughts on “Superficiality

  1. I think that mother/grandmother guilt thing is true across the board no matter what your family’s ethnic background. Both of my grandmothers (German heritage) are proficient in the use and administration of guilt. I’m waiting for my mother to become an expert. She’s not quite as good yet.

    • You’re right.

      My mother is very much an expert to administering guilt. My grandmother? She doesn’t do it to me or my other siblins, but I bet she does it a lot to my mother. Like mother, like daughter. ;)

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