I’m the kind of person that likes to turn off all the lights in the house when I go to bed. I like it really dark that I can’t see the front of my face, so I can sleep better. But, it takes me a while to sleep because I have too much in my mind. That’s when my imagination goes haywire as well.
As I lay in bed last night, I was thinking of things that had happened that day, evaluating, re-evaluating, how I could have done things different, what I accomplished, etc. I would let my mind go elsewhere, and then…just listen to the silence.
Through the silence, I will hear the whirr of the ceiling fan, the occasional bursts of air from the air vent, and the creaks of the bed as I toss and turn.
Then I would hear something…like crackling of a plastic bag, either upstairs or downstairs. What could it be? Maybe the breeze of the air vents made the noise? Is there someone out there, waiting for me to sleep, and do something drastic to me?
Sometimes, I try to keep my eyes shut really tight because I have some strange feeling that someone is right there in front of my face staring at me. I know…creepy.
Yeah, it’s mostly my imagination. That’s why I don’t like to watch horror movies.
I start to wonder if anyone out there is like me. I’ll never know.
I Have Cramps 
It’s okay Leiza, and as I write this, I hear myself saying it to you very endearingly.
Though you mention you cannot sleep unless it is pitch black, yet the darkness still scares you sometimes, I am often deathly afraid of the dark, something I have never grown out of.
I have a small bedroom ensuite with toilet and sink, and usually keep that light on with the door shut, or partially cracked open when I sleep at night. Otherwise, it seems I am more susceptible to nightmares.
Odd. I have no idea why I’m so irrationally afraid to sleep in total darkness. Well, I do, but, it all stems back to irational childhood fears that I have never grown out of. I just can’t grow out of it. And, well, it might be too late now :)
P.S. – maybe your problem is all those games you play lol!!
I have a small bedroom ensuite with toilet and sink, and usually keep that light on with the door shut, or partially cracked open when I sleep at night.
Our bathroom window lets in the street light that is always on at night outside, so I make sure that the doors of my bathroom are closed to make the room in pitch darkness.
I used to have trouble sleeping without a night light on when I was younger. I don’t know how I got so used to the darkness…oh yeah, it’s those summer camps I used to go to…always pitch black at lights out. ;)
P.S. – maybe your problem is all those games you play lol!!
Hahaha! :D
Girl. I was a total wreck when I used to live in a townhouse, it gets me all paranoid knowing there’s a ‘downstairs’.
Well, I used to sit at the edge of my bed with a pepper spray on one hand and constantly checking my phone for a dial tone so I could readily dial 911 if ever something happens. Most nights, I would just stare at my bedroom doorknob and just watch for any movement [knob turning or whatnot]. I was a nutcase.
But now, I’ve mellowed a bit. I live alone, and I have a spare empty room…and sometimes when my imagination runs a bit I get worried that someone would come in through the window and clobber me to death. [that’s from watching the Ted Bundy movie…] But you know I try to condition myself so I could relax and just sleep peacefully. And what’s so bad is my bedroom door doesn’t have a lock. I know, what’s up with that?
so yeah, you are not alone.
Then you should change that knob para may lock. It’s easy to do. :D
Why not sublet that spare room? It’s good to have company once in a while.
i’m really bad with being ‘handy’…i even have to call maintenance to help me change a light bulb! alas, i have not much talent in that area compared to my suave kitchen skills. tee-hee.
and about the spare room, my bro is coming here soon so i’m keeping it empty. :)
i’m really bad with being ‘handy’…i even have to call maintenance to help me change a light bulb! alas, i have not much talent in that area compared to my suave kitchen skills. tee-hee.
Ay sus! Then that’s where I’m expert at. They always said I was tomboy back when I was younger. :D
The most sleepless night I ever spent was in high school. I drank an entire liter of Mountain Dew and watched America’s Most Wanted.
I had to sleep with a rolling pin under my bed for weeks.
Now I sleep have heavy curtains on my ground floor bedroom picture windows… and with a fan on to block out “the things that go bump in the night.” (Of course anything that goes bump in the night in my house usually was opened, pushed off, batted around by my cats.)
I’ve always had a sleepless night ever since I can remember. The latest I have been awake was 12 noon, and that was because I had the curtains drawn in the room that I didn’t notice that time flew.