I always have this sense of longing…for something to do. I constantly search, find some things that I can do, but then they still leave me empty. I find no satisfaction or contentment or even something demanding my constant attention. I have not found that something that I can call my own thing, and one that will regularly have me going back for more and more.
I have a hyper mind, me thinks. One that needs knowledge at all times. One that gets distracted most of the time. One that longs for stimulation as one longs for water in a desert.
I don’t know. I’m always in a sense of melancholy lately…like I’m lacking something, or someone.
Maybe more of God in my life? Maybe. I have been putting Him off for quite some time. I have not even gone to church in so long, it’s unusual of me, let alone have a quiet time with Him in the confines of a peaceful room.
Maybe this is one of those signs that tells someone that something needs to be done. And now. I can’t help but think that God is nudging me, making me remember the good old times we had together. I know I need to get my act together soon.
I Have Cramps 