Blah, Family, Slumming

Thinking of…

I have an affinity to be melodramatic. My imagination always, ALWAYS goes haywire with little things like missing a stair step that I end up falling down and hitting my head on the sharp edge of the piano leg that’s right at the end of the stairs at home. And what would happen afterwards, and so on. The list is goes on that contain lots of worst-scenario mishaps I might encounter. This also includes wrong-doings that might happen to my hubby or my daughter, but mostly mainly me.

I’m always afraid of death. I’m sure I’m not the only one. It’s not really the death itself that scares me the most. It’s leaving the ones behind. What happens when I’ve passed on. How will they cope when I’m gone. Also the things I’ve done on the Internet will still be somewhat active still, yet the “star” is not there. It’s almost to the point that I want to make a living will.

I know I’m being weird. I don’t think I’ll die anytime soon, but there’s always the thought. You’ll never really know, huh?

I’m also afraid of losing hubby. I don’t show it much, but in the back of my mind, I’m screaming and pulling my hair out due to worry for my husband. He’s been really lucky, or shall I say blessed, in life. He’s had so many life-threatening accidents happen and he comes out unscathed. But how long will it last?

I guess I’m just scared in total of the uncertainty of life. I see all these murders and deaths happen in the news lately, it’s almost become a “household” theme. Like this man, for example, who stabbed his wife to death because she wouldn’t sleep in the bedroom. I mean, c’mon! It’s just so totally bogus to have something happen like that just because of a minute matter.

I have an affinity to be melodramatic. Now you know why.

Family, Me, Slumming

2008 Realizations

So, since the first of the new year has come and gone, I realized some things:

~ You’ll get sick no matter what. And how. This cold has been creeping up since the 29th of December while I fought it and it won. Retaliation!

~ You’re still the same as you used to be. You’d think some kind of transformation will happen once the clock struck midnight. Wrong! I’m still 4 feet 10 and a half inches tall. Bummer.

~ Family is here to stay. And yay! I really love my family. Spending time with my two aunts, Auntie Vren and Auntie Gigi made me nostalgic. So much so that I went all the way to Bridgeport and with a slight fever just to spend time with them. Dani had a blast as well.

~ God is an awesome God. On the drive home before midnight on New Year’s Eve, I kept praying to God to keep me safe and sound. All the stoplights were green, not many vehicles were around, and no accidents. Even made it home 30 minutes before midnight. Praise God!

I hope for a safe, healthy, blessed, loving new year for everyone. Here’s to you! *toast*

Baby, Family, Me, Slumming, Trips

Christmas and the New Year is Looming

I was glad to hear that someone is covering for me on the 24th so my family and I can spend Christmas with my family. It’s always been the family tradition to celebrate Christmas during the night of the 24th, but this time it’s going to be during brunch. Living in the U.S. isn’t easy when the half of the population is working on a holiday, especially Christmas. I’m one of them. My job may be nice, but we work 24/7, including every holiday known to man.

Not that I complain about working holidays. I like working the days, because there is hardly anyone here. It’s quiet, I could probably take a nap if I wanted to, play online games (shhh), but only if there isn’t anything going on.

I’m very thankful lately that I have a great family. I know we were all scattered here and there back in the day, where you hardly saw anyone, and you hardly did anything. But it’s just now that I feel that though we have been far apart, we have grown closer. I love my siblings more than ever, and I have more camaraderie with them. Also, it’s just lately I have learned more about them than in my younger years when I was self-absorbed and oblivious. It’s very refreshing to know that I have, at least, connected with them even more.

So what has the past year been like?

Last May, Dani celebrated her first birthday. It wasn’t much, just us 3 but still it has been fun just being together. It made me cringe tho that she used her hands to eat and messed up her birthday suit. Ah, well, all in the occasion, huh? :)

Dani also had her first haircut this year. Her bangs were just getting into her eyes, and we thought it was time. We took her to the hairdresser and it was hard for her to keep still. I had to have her sit on my lap and hold her head while the hairdresser cut the bangs. Dani was kind of scared, but was more scared of the stranger cutting her hair than the actual cutting.

Had another family reunion in July and it was fun. We also had the chance to see my stepmother, Auntie Gigi perform on stage during the reunion. Luci, Dani and I drove all the way to Chicago and had a blast doing it. Also the most memorable of all, having my family sing together in my aunt’s church. Just being together like that gave me goose bumps.

My first trip to Singapore happened in November. I was also able to get my eldest sister to join us during our trip there. It was fun seeing her again and having to spend time with. She and her hubby were also able to see Dani for the first time. Dani seemed to know they were family since she took to them right away. I was going to arrange to go back to the Philippines for a couple of days as well, but that plan didn’t work so well. Maybe one of these years, Luci, Dani and I will plan to go home again for Christmas and New Year.

So, yeah, I’ve been pretty thankful this past year. Where in that certain day of time we look back and think of the bad things, all I can think of right now are the good things. God has blessed us and I am happy.

So what’s in store for the next year? Right now, I’m praying for another child. Why not join me? :)

Gaming, Me, Slumming

Such is Life

Once I start typing here, I feel like I want to curl back in bed and sleep. Why do I feel like writing on my blog makes my skin crawl? Or that is has leprosy and I must stay away. Just weird. Well, I’ll try to post something worthwhile.

Highlights, from now to then:
~ Still playing LOTRO.
~ Had Thanksgiving, November.
~ Went to Singapore for 7 days, November.
~ One of my great-uncles passed away, November.
~ Also learned one of my great-aunts passed away, few years back.
~ Family reunion in Chicago, July.

That’s all I remember right from memory. Happiness and sadness, all rolled into one. Such is life.

Up ahead:
~ Will be working Christmas day.
~ Will be working New Year’s day.

Such is life.

Creating, Me, Slumming

You Don’t Really Care

You don’t really care –
That I looked for you.
You don’t really care –
I wept for you.
You don’t really care –
I walked the world for you.
You don’t really care –
Do you?

Do you really care –
What’s going on with me?
Do you really care –
If I slipped and fell?
Do you really care –
If I’m stuck here?
Do you really care –
Do you?

I do.

You don’t really care –
That I cry at night.
You don’t really care –
When I tell you I’m here for you.
You don’t really care –
When I need a hug.
You don’t really care –
Do you?

Do you really care –
Something’s wrong with me?
Do you really care –
You want to hold me close?
Do you really care –
Things will be okay?
Do you really care –
Do you?

I do.

Baby, Gaming, Me, Slumming

In A Miss

Sheesh, I haven’t wrote on this blog in so long. I just don’t have anything much to update. I’m a really boring person. I just work, sleep, play games online, read, and the cycle goes on. Okay. Pity party over. Hehehe.

Behold, now comes the different thought processes that Leiza has going on in her brain.

There’s this little newspaper I always pick up just when I get in to work. The little box where you pull this lever and you get this little tabloid-size paper-ma-jiggie. Oh, that reminds me of that CSI episode where they found a head in there. Now, I gotta take care not to take any of those newspapers in that box. Good thing there’s this girl that hands them out to people. Because it’s nearby the train station. I really love the proximity of the train to work. I should use the train again. I haven’t ridden one since 2004 — I remember the year because I still have the card with the 2004 sticker on it. Maybe because I usually get ready late, even though I get to work early. I parked my car at the dock earlier so I could get my gear upstairs and then get the key card to get to another parking area that has badge-access only. But someone wanted me out of the spot I parked at, because he had to pick something up or drop something off at the docks. Blah, I lost like 4 minutes there trying to get out and back in another spot. 4 minutes late when I clocked in. (Blank look on my face while I try to get my thought processes running again.) Oh man, is that the time? 5:43pm. But it’s like 2 minutes late. I gotta adjust it soon. Looking at some pictures again. Oh, the world’s largest picture mosaic! I forgot I took a picture of that. I wonder what was in those pictures on the picture mosaic? It’s too high to really see the individual pictures. I really gotta get back on the site. Those are some pretty amazing galaxies out there. Makes me feel smaller than I really am. Gotta lose weight. But I’m so lazy. Oh, that Zantrax 3 didn’t work out too well for me. It made me dizzy all day. I think it fought with BP pill and the other pill. Leiza didn’t win in the fight. She was on the bed, trying to get through the day. Good thing I tried it when I was off-work. I told Lucien to try it, though. He might get something out of it all, though he did feel the same queasiness like I did. But it’s been 3 days now, so it should be good. Oh, Lucien should be seeing that contractor now. We’re thinking of adding some rooms on the second floor. Gotta get ready when Janna and Jonelle come here. But when are they coming? The adoption thing is taking too long. It’s been 2 years already. Lucien’s impatient, always ragging me and asking me what the status was. How can I tell him when I don’t know anything? I keep telling him that but still blahbitty-blah-blah. Dani is really growing. She’s so cute and sweet most of the time. She’s doing her little tantrums here and there, but sometimes I’m the cause of it. She fell off the bed last night, and was crying a lot, I felt so bad that I had to hug her for a long time. But I know she’ll never learn her lesson, because she’s going to end up doing it again. But that’s how children discover their boundaries. She even tried to see how far she could go using this little step ladder we had. I gave her a warning tone, but she just looked at me and propped her foot on the first step. I even glared at her and kept talking in a stern tone, but no dice. She looked, “Let’s see how far I can pull this off”. Finally, I went over and put her foot down on the floor where it was more stable. She cried. I guess I kinda scared her? Dunno. Her hair is growing so much. I wonder if I should try to cut her bangs. But her hair is so nice and soft, I’m afraid to even touch it. I’m starting to brush her teeth. She kinda likes the feeling of the brush against her teeth, but then it’s hard to keep her mouth open enough to brush them. She keeps biting down. So I have to make her smile by smiling at her showing my teeth. She does a lot of imitations here and there. Like earlier this morning, I was wiggling my fingers to her, and she imitated it. She’s so cute! I just want to hug her. Oh, I think I made her irritated in trying to pull her thumb away from her. We gotta try to stop her thumb-sucking soon. It’s not good for her teeth. But she cried and cried, and it hurt me. I have to look up what’s a better way to do this.

Okay, I’m drained. There’s still a lot of the stuff in there, I just can’t catch up. But funny about what you’re thinking and just typing it out like a boss dictating notes to his assistant. It’s fun to do that sometimes. :)

Family, Gaming, Slumming, Trips

Hurricane? What Hurricane?

Hi, guys!

I know some of you are concerened about us back here in Dallas due to Hurricane Rita coming Texas way. marielogan actually called me at home to check up on how we are this morning.

Not to worry, though, because we are 6 hours away from Houston, and it’s unlikely that we will be hit by Rita. If there was able an indication that Rita passed by, we would probably just have medium to heavy rain. Other than that, we aren’t in any danger.

Thank you for your concerns, though. It’s nice to find that there are people out there that care for us. :)

Some more tidbits:
– Lucien just came from Taipei this morning. He was in job training for week.
– My mom just came from the Philippines this afternoon. She was there for a week also.
– I’ve been addicted to the game Dofus lately, that’s why I haven’t been able to blog.
– Things have been pretty much the same, another reason why I haven’t been able to blog, because why should I say the same thing over and over again? :P

Well, I hope you guys are doing well on your end. Take care!

Blah, Family, Me, Ponderisms, Slumming

I’m Here

I don’t know why I’m slacking on writing here. Sorry, folks. I just don’t have anything to say. Well, maybe a few. I do miss this, though. I just wish I had more enthusiasm on doing this.

As far as my diet program is doing, it’s doing well. I have lost another 1.2 pounds since my last weighing last Thursday. Slowly, but surely. It’s so fulfilling seeing those numbers go down.

My brother found a different adoption lawyer, but this dude is cheaper and as efficient as the other one. We are still in the process of getting the papers together. A home study, we were told, will take 3 months to complete. Ewww. I also need a Certificate of Good Moral Character for Lucien and I. Maybe my mom can help me out on that.

Works been good. No complaints. And nothing to tell,’s pretty much the same thing.

The weather is getting the best of me. I’m looking forward to the fall and winter. Hopefully, we’ll have snow this year.

I wish I can travel. Or even go with Lucien to Taiwan this September. I just feel like going to other places instead of here. It’s been a bit monotonous lately.

I guess that’s it. If you think I should say something else, ask me a question and I will post an long winding answer. :P